My Dad

I found a picture of my dad today. It was a picture I took a couple years ago of him and my youngest baby sister, out in our backyard in Minnesota. Floods of memories came back and I just remember feeling like he really loved us. I felt such joy taking that picture. But now when I look at the photograph, I just see right through the smiles on their faces, I see the pain and fear piercing through my  little sister. And I see what a troubled and mentally unstable person my dad is. As I looked at the picture tears filled my eyes. I never thought it would turn out like this. I never thought I’d wake up one day and finally realize that my own dad didn’t love me, and that I had been living in his lie for my entire life. Sometimes I just wish so much that I had a real dad who really loved me and cared for me. But then it comes quickly to my mind that I do. I have a father who will never ever give up on me, who gave everything to have me, who loves me unconditionally forever, and who cares about me more than I could imagine. What more do I need? I am very thankful I have God as my true father. Some people have no hope at all! Some people have lost their father, and even their mother, and they feel desperately alone. I have so much to be thankful for, even though I’ve gone through such tough times in my life. I will always have hope. My story about my dad is far too long to write here. I would have to write a book, which I am working on. So until then,

Love you guys!





4 thoughts on “My Dad

  1. You are a very brave and compassionate young lady, Heaven. You remind me a lot of my wife, who also had a difficult childhood, yet she is always compassionate and eager to forgive. Love, Uncle Jas


  2. God truly is an amazing Father. Dependable, loving, kind, generous, the list goes on and on. Where our earthly fathers fail… He is the One who leads us, teaches us, and embraces us. I am so grateful you know this truth Heaven. Keep growing in God girl and find your identity in Him … For He is the one who have it to you in the first place 😉 Love you so so much!!!


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